1ST POST!!! Went doc to chck on my coughing agen... n he says i've gt tonsilitis... he says if dis occur to me 4 tymes a yr i will nid to go fer operation... its kinda scary thou... eeuuuwwww... gt 2 days mc... gettin ready den met min n her colleague at TM to hav our lunch... b4 me,kakak n min gg fer our BTT... n btw went 4 my BTT n i actuali failed... hahaha... i did nt revised a single ting... hehehe... i rebooked mt BTT test agen wich falls on 16may... nid to wait so long seh... n i tot of gettin myself a motor licence as well... cool ryte??? 2ND POST!!! When i saw u... i was so relieved... dunt noe how to react too... when we shake hands n hug each other i tot tings wuld b betta... n i tink i missed u... but at sum point... i feel lyke a stranger... as if i jus knew u... i dunt noe y... but our frenship is gettin out of hand... i dunt blame my fren fer my situation im gg thru nw... its my own fault... im nt shure wat happen next in my lyfe... but im gonna bear dis consequences by myself... 3RD POST!!! Went out at abt 1900hrs to mit apai at orchard... he jus came out frm his rehearsal parade... changing of command or watsoever lerr... hehehe... den met isha at wisma starbuck... n gez wat... syuk was there too... introduce dem to apai... i feel so awkward... next we plan to play pool @ lucky plaza... i dunt noe y... but was no mood to play... n my concentration was nt there... n apai disturb me by sayin "no mood or bcos he's here wit us" n i was lyke "wtf"... nt even fer an hr i wanted to stop playin... so me n apai sat infront of lucky plaza smokin... wanted sum fresh air... while isha n syuk went to the toilet n to the ATM... i dunt wish to stay ard syuk any longer... so i plan to go elsewhre wit apai... we bid gdbye to dem... was so pissed off wit apai... he kept holdin his hp n smsin wit dunt noe who... its either F or I... he let me listen to his hp mp3... n the song was MY HEART... n my tears started to fall n he saw it n change the song n say "wrg song" n he went bck to his hp... i was lyke argh!!!! wtf n wth... wateva... but he will hold me wen i wanted to fall in the train n it was lyke wow... hehehe... i dunt noe y... but i hart him alot seh... wich i olready noe whre i stand in his lyfe... but i dunt seem care bout dat... me too hav lots of guys fren... but he's sum1 special... i luv lukin at him laughin,smilin,slipin n angry luk... but too bad he gt 2 other gerls in his lyfe bside his mum of cos... owh gawd!!! cnt u jus let him see how genuine my luv fer him... back to the story we went to mit his fren... n abt 0400hrs i reached hm... 4TH POST!!! Mum noes evrytink... frm clubbin,drinkin n smokin... tings been bad... been quarelling... n the next ting we r okie n den quarell agen... but i feel relieve too dat mum noes wat happen... n wat i gonna do is dat i will try nt to drink too much... club i will still go... but lessen it... smoke i dunt tink i cn stop... smoke is jus hard... n its up to evry1 to xcept it or nt... cos i cnt force any1 to blieve me nw... n gainin any1 trust is difficult... but seriously... i cn only try... but cnt promise anytink... cos the 1 gg thru ol dis is me... 5TH POST!!! Sheila-tanx fer evrytink... im nt blaming any1 fer my mistake... nt even u... but nw u c wat ur gg thru nw... u oso cnt go out... but i helped u... atleast a bit... n i gez wat mum says is true... nvr trust ani1 even ur sibling... so there is no secret btw us animore as u will lead ur own lyfe n i lead mine... we r still related only as a sibling... im sorie... but dats the way it has 2 be nw...
